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Never thought I’d be at a loss for words

30 Aug

You know, it’s funny. For one reason or another I thought this blog thing would come really easy to me. I’ve done it before on a completely different topic for a while, I like to write, I like to tell long, convoluted stories about events in my life, including about weight and the changing of it. But for the last four days I’ve been trying to make myself come up with a decent post idea, and it’s like my mind recoils from the very thought of it.

Part of it, I think, is that I’m introverted in the Myers-Briggs sense, and intensely private besides. For all I share random events from my day with people at work and at home, rarely are they personal moments, or anything emotional. Almost never do they descend below the surface-level.

The issue being – and this is something I’m realizing more and more as time goes on – my weight is a far more emotional issue for me than I thought it was. I can share an embarrassing weight-related story with my roommate because she is also my best friend and knows me far, far too well, but as faceless and anonymous as the Internet is supposed to be…I’ve been seizing up at the thought of sharing anything that might strike a chord in my own breast and accidentally reveal something about the side of me I don’t tend to share without anyone, save those closest to me.

Also, the personal nature of the topics I want to discuss make it hard for me to frame them like I normally would. I typically like to tell a structured story, with a beginning and a middle and a punch line right where it’s supposed to go. The goal is to entertain, not to share. But it’s impossible, I think, for me to talk about my weight and the impact it has on my life without sharing, and that causes my brain to go all chaotic and messy and scatters my typical writing mechanisms beyond my grip. I lose track of the story I was trying to tell, veer too deep into personal waters, and don’t quite know how to bring it back again.

It’s kind of interesting, I guess, that I don’t quite know how to structure my own emotions textually speaking. I haven’t figured out how to tell them like a story, yet.

Also interesting that my heart is not quite so far removed from my stomach as I may have thought (emotional eating notwithstanding).

Posts that have resonated

25 Aug

I don’t, unfortunately, read a lot of weight loss blogs. There’s really only three that I’ve followed with any kind of regularity over the last year or so. To be honest, most weight loss blogs are blocked by the firewall at work and I haven’t traditionally read them at home. But firewall or no firewall, the blogs in my sidebar I’ve stuck with because they’re either riotously funny, thought provoking, or both.

Some posts, in particular, that have stuck with me:

A Matter of Motivation – Roni’s Weigh

There’s a common thread of encouragement running through most of Roni’s posts, and a lot of the posts she hits here come up again and again throughout her blog – because they bear repeating. This is some of the best advice I’ve ever read in terms of getting in the right mindset to be successful at losing weight, and I’ve kept them close to heart – not always as close as I should, but hey. I try. ^^

Brick Walls and Fat Girls – Roni’s Weigh

There’s a triple layer of awesome here. First, there’s Roni’s post and her take on a Randy Pauschman quote. Then there’s a link to one of PastaQueen’s insightful posts. Then there’s a link to one of those videos that do more to make me question the reality of what I see and percieve than going to see Inception did.

Can You Let it Go? – Roni’s Weigh

A very open, honest post that struck a chord with me. I’m not exactly as close to letting it go as Roni is, but it’s something I keep in mind and try to remind myself of as I move forward, and especially those times when I move backwards.

Me vs. Future Me – PastaQueen

One of the biggest reasons I love PastaQueen’s blog – besides her gift with the written language and her sense of humour – is how much I identify with her and her struggle to lose weight. This post is a perfect example of something I read and found myself laughing and nodding and agreeing with.

A Better Version of Me – PastaQueen

I stumbled across this post again the other day and it made me pout because I understand better now what she’s talking about, than I did when I first read it.

Skinny Person Inside – PastaQueen

This one of the posts that really made me think, and this idea has stayed with me since I first read it.

Chex Mix – Back to the Fridge

I laughed until I cried reading this post (as I do with most of Charlie’s posts). The picture of the baby in the stroller really did it for me. Replace “Chex Mix” with “SmartFood” and it’s me.

Stupid Switch – Back to the Fridge

I had a genuine admiration for how Charlie tackles his own weight loss challenges and frustrations with humour – admiration and gratitude, since I recognize far too many of the behaviours and pitfalls not to see them in myself. I’ve used the Switch metaphor a few times since reading this post.

Food Substitutions – Back to the Fridge

And this is an example of why losing weight is not quite so simple as calories in, calories out.

TL;DR: Go read the links in my blogroll. They’re amazing, inspiring, funny, and completely worth your love and adoration.

Welcome to Adipos

24 Aug

adipos-: Latin; of or pertaining to fat.

Specifically mine. :)

Welcome to the blog!

More to come once I’m not trying to write HTML code on my phone.